Sunday, October 30, 2005

Multiple lives

I have three lives. Sometimes they overlap, but most of the time I feel like I need to choose between them.
In one life I live in Toronto. I have my great friends there, and I enjoy the city and all it has to offer. In this life I want to live there, wear impractical shoes and enjoy the company of the people I've met there. The problem with this life, is that it's hard to be so close to it, but yet so far away from it. As great as the thought of living in Toronto is, it's seem oh so far away.
I'm even more removed from my second life. My life in Calgary. Again that is the home of many great friends and memories. It's also where my family lives. The way of life is very different, but I often feel the pull of the West and think maybe it's time I return.
My third life is the one I deny, it's my day to day existence. Where I have a job that frustrates me, a boss who tends to infuriate me, and no social life at all. This is the life I'm trying to escape.

In my constant desire to leave my third life, I feel like I need to pick between the other two, at least for the time being. I can't decide, and have a feeling my job prospects will be deciding for me. I look forward to the day where I get to make a decision about where I live based on where I want to live, and right now it looks like that day is very far away.

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

sittin' here thinkin' the 3rd life blues
workin' on gettin' this life fixed
wishin' 4 would come through
tryin' not to burn up my last 6
gonna walk before they make me run ;)

12:21 AM  

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